When I'm away........

And, when DADI is in charge of the house, this is what happen......If you not use to it, you might think that a thief break into my house - mess whole house. But, when you look carefully again, haha...the lil thieves are my 2 princes who forgot to tidy their toys once finished play with it + DADI who only know how to ON his laptop once back home.

Inside the playroom...

In the living room

The laundry basket...

Aiyooohhhhh........That's the scenario when I open my house door and try to step inside.

Dilemma of Working Mom.....

Yup, I'm in dilemma again....Of course it is related to my princes again. For my job, I don't have that kind of dilemma or stress and I don't know why, if it involves my kids, I will be more stress and pressure in making decision. Another few more months to go, Jona will be attending primary 1(morning session). And, I have to make a final decision.

His current kindy/daycare don't accept primary 1 student due to not enough caretakers and teachers to manage the kids. And, this force me to look for a daycare specialise in taking primary student. Today, I manage to find one which everyone telling me it is a good daycare/tuition centre. But, when I called to check some info, I found out that currently, they have 35 students in that centre. Further checking the principal told me that their maximum intake will be 40!! It seem the student:teacher ratio is quite high and I wonder how would they able to handle my Jona well.

Of course, another point that I dislike about this daycare cum tuition, is because their fee automatically include tuition fees!! I really don't want my Jona to attend tuition class everyday after school!! I want him to enjoy his childhood life - 'throw' away his school bag after school, take easy shower, watch tv for a while and take a short nap before waking up doing his homework....In the evening, go to playground to play and sweat out. That would be my wish for my Jona before he enter his teenager or primary 4 or 5.

I don't think primary one student should be burden with tuition daily. Plus I bet his chinese primary school has already got piles of homework to finish daily.....

Arrgghhh...only if I'm stay at home mom, then, I bet I don't have this to worry about.....I do think of hire an in-house nanny which cook for my kids, tidy up my house for 5 working days, but, then, where can I find this local nanny?? My friend is hiring one currently as her work only allowed her to go back home around 9pm and no daycare willing to take her kids, so she got no choice which sometimes is good too....

Mommies, what do you think? Should I hire one in-house nanny to help me out with my kids? Or, I should register my Jona at this daycare + tuition or I should seek other daycare which don't really emphasize on tuition instead it is a pure daycare to help me manage Jona?? **Cross finger** still convince Jona current daycare to accept Jona by just provide him with normal daycare facilities....no extra tuition except coaching his homework.

Primary 1.....??

I'm so happy when I received a letter from Education Ministry informing that Jona application to go to the primary school that we have decided being approved. Even Jona himself is happy too, as till today, he got 5 classmates that will be going to same school as him(from same kindy), but not too sure whether will be in same class except one.

Wow, finally I can go through the same experience as some mommies have posted on their blog previously ~ hopefully it will be a wonderful and exciting experience for me and Jona. So many thing to prepare ~ taking passport size photo, fill in the form and need to be submit before 2nd Oct(hopefully, I won't forget about this), buying books at certain date, and orientation on certain date too........a bit headache liao....PLUS, haven't even got time to check on daycare centre for Jona yet....

When I and Dadi decide to enroll Jona for this primary school(chinese medium), I have always think and wonder whether I would make a wise decision, and till today, I still don't know. All my wish is, Jona able to absorb and learn in the school he likes. And, when he show a good improvement in talking mandarin to grandma and even get a good result in his enrichment chinese class, I thought I have make a correct decision....But, then, deep in my heart, I'm still worried as his report card showing his Mandarin performance as 'GOOD' compare to English, Math and BM as 'EXCELLENT'.

I pray to GOD that Jona will be happy in his new school from next year onward.....It is really hard to make decision for kids....

Work Smart, Play Hard.....

I don’t know what happen. I have been pretty busy since June this year. So many things need to be manage and taken care of. I just think that 24 hours is really not enough for me to manage all these, and due to this circumstance, I have lost weight extremely.

Everyone seem me include my customer, has been asking me, why I lose weight again. Yup, and my blog diary also received some impact as well ~ as you see, I no longer able to write frequently anymore (even though previously, I also didn’t’ update frequently, but, at least, there is some update about my princes).

My job task has getting tough month by month especially from 1st July onward. I will be in charge of AP region exclude Japan market. Previously, I don’t have to cover China or HK (as we have an office there), but, now, yes. I even have to manage my colleague there to make sure everything run smoothly.

Haha…if only my remuneration package is BIG and attractive as well, then, I won’t be grumpy and complain anymore….

Of course there is Pros & Cons for everything. With this job task, I will be able to provide better living for my princes and my future, but, then, I will miss my princes even more with my ‘heavy’ travelling. Maybe, my Iz is big boy already, as he no longer cry or miss me so much when I travelling which of course am good to me (as I can concentrate more on my assignments).

I hope I could find some solution soon, or would this be my early middle life crisis? Haha

Cruel or not....

I hate 4 legs insects (to be exact invertebrate). I don’t know why but, it just makes me shivering. In my house, lizard or cockroach is the king ~ as I dare not kill them. Everytimes, cockroach crawling, my sons will scream and calling Dadi for help. Haha….

Till Dadi can’t take it anymore, so, he went and bought this.
At first he told me that he bought a food pellet that when cockroach or lizard eats it, they will die and when their friend eats their carcass it will spread. Who know, he didn’t bought what he told me.

And, when I wake up next morning, I saw this on the floor in kitchen as well as in bathroom. Eeeeeiiii….it give me a shock!!! This is Dadi, when he does something, he won’t give anyone a notice about it. Even Jona and Iz cannot accept what Dadi did ~ they denied going inside bathroom to brush their teeth.

And, imagine, since I hate invertebrate, of course I won’t go and even bother or touch them. This Dadi, once put the trap, he didn’t even bother to go and clear it, and he expected ME to do it!!!

My nerve just boil up ~ I hate invertebrate, no doubt, but, put this kind of trap to trap and kill them instantly I definitely won’t do it as I think it is really cruel. I want to call Pesticide Company to come but, Dadi say no need. Sometimes, I really don’t know what man thinking…..

And, it bring back the memory: I remember when I was alone over weekend during one of the semester break, one night, suddenly a frog jump into the rent house(I rent with my housemate but all gone back hometown except me). Imagine, I got scare off, and climb on my double deck bed, and didn’t come down whole night ~ crying and then fall asleep without I realize it. So pitiful hor…..That’s me and it seem now, Jona is inherited 'this' from me…..

Kitty, Kitty, You Naughty Kitty!

This few days, suddenly Jona told me that he want to have a pet animal, and he even have decided the name for his pet ~ Kitty, the cat!! I don’t know why he chose cat as his pet, but I’m definitely won’t fulfill his request. Several reasons: even though I’m not a cat lover, but, I’m not that bad to cat as well, if they didn’t step into my boundary. And, worst part, Dadi is allergic to animal flur or dust ~ as he has sinus problem as well as asthma. So, imagine, if there is slightly dust at home or cat ‘touch’ Dadi leg, Dadi will sneeze non stop!!

The funny part, I did even propose to my colleague who is a cat lover, to ‘borrow’ his cat to me for several days, as I want Jona to learn that it is really not that easy to request thing as he need to be full responsible to the cat ~ like bath, feed etc, etc….Haha…of course, my colleague rejected my request, as his cat is really oversize and also the body is out of proportion. If you didn’t realize it, the cat head is so small and the body is so BIG(should have take his cat photo and show it).

While I ‘squeezing’ my head to think of ideas suddenly a cat by pass in front of me (I was in the kitchen preparing lunch for my kids), hold something inside the mouth. At first glance, I thought it might be mouse. And, when he spit the thing out, and start to chew, bite and eat it, only I realize it is a fried chicken.


See, the Kitty keep looking back while he munch the food ~ must be steal again liao!!

I just wondering where he gets it from, does he steal the food again from one of my neighbors or it is a gift from them?? Honestly, I hate stray cat as well as not responsible owner of the cat. There is one time, when I put my Pomphret fish on my kitchen sink to defrost, though of wash and steam it for dinner later. When I heard some noise from the kitchen, and went to see, I realize the cat has taken my fish!! Horrible!!

And, yesterday some stray cat eats my fish food again (second time already)!! Is the cat so hungry till fish food also they can eat?? I should convince Jona to have fish as his pet and also think of way how to get rid of cat coming to my compound. Any ideas?

Smooth traffic = Good Mood

I dont' know whether it is only me or it happen to almost everyone who need to rush to/back work every morning/evening. I realise that since January this year, the number of cars on the road is TRIPLE compare to before economic slow down. I really don't know what is happening or going on....anyone able to tell me about it?


I remember clearly 2 years back, when my office hour is from 9am ~ 6pm, the traffic is really bad till I have to request to my boss that I want to change working hour, just to beat the traffic. Imagine to reach office before 9am, I have to leave home at 7.30am and after 6pm, I only reach home around 7 or 7.30pm. Because of the traffic stress, my mood will turn bad as well, and it is not good for my health(as my body cell will be depressed too without me realising it). Luckily, he approve my request. So, from that day, my official hour is change from 8am ~ 5pm. And, every morning, I started from my house around 7.20am, and it took me around 30~ 40mins to reach my office and same when I going home. So nice and wonderful hor....


Good thing never last forever!! A year back, thing has changed slowly and traffic started to get worst in early morning and before I manage to change my schedule again, suddenly due to petrol increase in price(middle of the year), cars getting less on the road, and it seem to be dreaming again that I could take only 30 mins drive to work ~ very smooth......

See, the sky is not 'open' yet, instead I already stuck in traffic jam :(

I still stuck.....

Too bad, it is only for few months nia....And, esp now, since January 2009, I can see there is huge change in car flow during early morning, say 7am!! Traffic start to occur everywhere. And, the worst part, nowadays, I no more enjoy driving easily in the early morning. My traffic jam started exactly in from of my house till I reach office. Imagine the stress that I occured. To make it worst, I can't start from my house at 7.20am anymore nor 7am!! When I start from my house at 7am, I will only reach my office around 8.10 or sometimes, 8.30am!!! Aiyoooohhhh!!!! One and half hours stuck inside the car!!!

What should I do?? Change to work from 7 ~ 4pm?? Is this possible? I don't think so...My colleague even tease me saying "come early to office, eat breakfast and then, start work" or "move house near to office"........Does this worth it to do so??

Rain, rain go away,....Momi need to go to work(the worst!!)

One thing I know for sure: When the traffic is bad esp during raining, or some minor car accident, my mood will be moody or bad as well during that whole day. When my mood is bad, everything doesn't seem to be correct at all......Now, only if I could stay at home, haha....then, all these unnecessary stress will go away peacefully and I will have more healthy life!!! For sure, I need to pray to GOD to give me sight to find solution for this crazy traffic........

Weekend Activities

Remember I say before that Dadi always complains that my son toys are too many and request me to stop buying anymore when I’m on my biz trip?

But, guess what? When I’m alone at home during weekend with 2 boys, it is really useful to have different kind of toys to occupy my prince’s free time. They will play on their own most of the time, of course, half of the time, screaming calling Momi for helps like “Momi, you see Jonathan. He doesn’t want to play with me” “Momi, you see Iz. He take away my toys”……Never ending.

The best part is, the outcome:

Jona & Iz just love their LEGO blocks so much. When they play with their LEGO, they are so creative. So far, I only teach them how to build house, farm animals, car etc. But, not so advance like Dinosaurs, etc. And, the second time, they play, they able to build house even better than me, and start making ‘swimming pool’, bathroom, set house alarm, make farm animal, etc..

This is Iz creation. His 'house' got many doors, windows, and bathroom with alarm system. Got tv set as well, and several beds for people to sleep and sheeps to sleep too.....

This is Jona creation, rebuild it second time after being 'destroy' by Iz when Iz is angry.....half way build(still under construction, I gues)

Doesn’t it look so nice & creative?

And, when they are bored with LEGO blocks, they will start drawing on piece of paper ~ anything that flash on their mind. Jona really able to draw better than Iz, and always end up, he is helping Iz with the drawing. But, before he helps Iz, he will say “Why you don’t know how to draw ar? If you don’t want to draw and keep ask me, then, why Momi need to send you to Art class?”

Fully occupied my fridge space with their creative drawing ~ crab, tree, flower, kite, sun, heart, honey in jar, apple, etc...(upper part belong to Iz and below part is Jona drawing)...

Seeing how their occupied their free time on weekend, I guess I better buy more stuffs esp LEGO blocks/drawing apparatus for them, what do you think, worth my investment on previous toys hor? I think it is time for me to go for some shopping since I have more free time when on biz trip rather than at home. Wondering whether LEGO will be cheap here in Oz/NZ compare to M'sia?

It is getting cold now.....

My travelling season started again, and soon, I will be travelling to Australia & New Zealand.......some of you might think it is fun and wonderful, but, I feel a bit sad. Why? Let me tell you why.....

Past few days, I told my boy boy that I will be going outstation again ~ Australia. And, guess what are their response?

Jona: Hooray!!!! Then, Dadi can take care of me everyday (haha....he is very timid, even though we all sleep in one room, he still insist that when Dadi not around, I need to sleep in between of him ~ in single bed and Iz ~ in King size bed. But, I reluctant as it is not comfortable at all). And, you just buy anything for me.

Iz: Then, you can buy for me the 'chop' in Red, yellow, Purple colour....and also buy for me the remote control boat where I can play on river........

See, you say I feel sad or not :(. Come to think of it, maybe, my boy get used to it already that Momi need to travel to earn more money, and they are now happy about it and used to it already. Guess I should just be happy with the travelling right? And, buy them some more 'stamping' stuff as they wished........




Note: This is Jona's art of using stamping to create the 'body' and then, use pen to draw the hands and legs, mouth and eyes ~ for me, I guess it is how he differentiate between girl and boy, haha...girl with some curly hair and red lip!!

Wordless Picture

I just love this picture so much, when I first saw it (like love at first sign) ~ it is taken by Aunty Carol using her camera phone when we are having our lunch at Sunway Pyramid, Teppanyaki Restaurant last year.

Don't they look so adorable and loving?

From this picture, I can really feel how deep Jona & Iz love for Eviana, their lil cousin. Everytimes, they see Evi, they will immediately go hug and kiss her till she scream for help. And, Jona even volunteer to watch Evi when he is playing or watching tv: just to make sure Evi don't fall from the mattress, etc....See how caring Jona is.

When I show this pic to my colleagues and friends, immediately they thought it is my newborn(latest family member). **Alamak** No lar....I told you all already, that I already 'close production', 'factory close' liao.......

On top of that, last weekend, Jona told me "Mommy, next time, when you give birth, please give birth to me only or only one baby". When I asked why? His reply is "So, you don't have to buy 2 same toys mah, also then, I don't have to fight with Iz for the toy anymore"

Haha...you say ar, how to have 3rd baby when my loving son give this comment liao....kah,kah....

Homecook Meal on Weekend only

I remember it clearly that when I was young, weekend is a OFF DAY for my mom. It mean no cooking and we all went out to have our dinner. And, of course, we, as kids can't wait for weekend as beside could enjoy nice fastfood, etc, we will go for quick shopping too!!

And, this family culture didn't change as well, even though I married already with 2 kids till recently. When my mom staying with me all these while, she will be doing the cooking during weekdays and on weekend, we will go out and eat and do my weekly marketing ~ which I could see Jona and Iz miss this outing the most when grandma is not around.

Since 2 weeks ago, I have started cooking a simple meal for my 2 lovely princes. Just because of them, I start wearing apron, keep squeeze my brain to think what to cook for my princes: a healthy and simple meal as well as what to buy when I go to wet market. Initially, I don't really enjoy cooking as I always worried that my food will be 'rejected' and end up in dustbin (see how demotivate I am). So to really start cooking, I really have to brainstorm myself and keep telling myself that it is alright, Jona and Iz will love the food that I cook.

Taadaaa......on Sat dinner, I boil chicken soup + white fungus + red dates + wild fox eyes (sorry, don't really know how to call it in English), and it turn out to be perfect!!! Both my kids love the meal and finish their whole bowl of rice ~ yummy yummy.

And, yesterday night, I fried some luncheon meat + eggs and cook some veggie soup too. Both of them, finished their meal again with Jona comment "Mommy, enough, my stomach is so full now"......."Next week, can you cook again ABC Chicken soup for me?" "I like it", Jona request.

Geeee, showing their satisfied face + happy stomach = It mean I really have to cook home meal for them on weekend liao.....I guess, only working mom like me, able to cook weekend homecook meal for my kids. It also mean that I have to find some simple recipes to learn.

Arrogant or Idiot Neighbour??!

This might be a very long and boring story for you all. So, if you do have time, please do read it while snippy your cup of favourite coffee/tea.

First of all, I really don’t wish to write this on my loving blog, but, this neighbour is really driving me nut with their little nonsense action daily. Let call them Leong Family.

It all started when they move it (a year plus), doing their big show off renovation. And, due to their selfish & arrogant attitude, one day, around 6 months back last year, they putting their flower pot in the middle of our cross line garden suddenly(In between of our little garden but outside the car porch, without apparent reason). To make story short, Leong started sent email to Dadi later to apologies and saying the main reason they put the flower pot is because he doesn’t want my hubby to park the car there!!! For me, it is really a nonsense and ridiculous. We are staying in a neighboring house. We never block their access and every neighbour is doing the same, as you know, when you are staying in terrace house, parking is an issue with all those house cramped and build close to each other(thanks to the developer). And, for this idiot Leong, what make me really angry is that his reason is because my hubby’s car is damaging his ‘alfafae’ grass and he is upset!! I mean, HALLO, since you plant your grass outside your car porch, anyone can park there and you should expect it as the land/property outside the car porch is belong to Maljis Perbandaran and not us.

And, he indeed did apologies about it and says in future, no matter what, he will talk to us directly instead of putting sign or whatsoever this idiot Leong will do.

The mess of the cement

Me and Dadi thought that from that day onward, everything should be peaceful again as usual before they MOVE into this neighborhood. Who know, they did it again!!! This time, on Monday, when Dadi reached home around 6pm, Dadi saw that our car porch floor is so dirty with cement scatter around and our fish tank is full of cement as well. Not only that, our plant is not spare of as well(And I really hate rennovate as Jona is allergic to cement and being hospitalise before). You know what they did??!!! They go and seal up the fence with a brick on our ‘sharing’ fence!! On their side, they did everything nicely already and left our side here with dirty floor, ugly wall, etc…..You tell me, who is not upset with all of these nonsense and stupid act by inconsiderate or retarded neighbour after you are tired with whole day work!!!

Ugly wall

Yesterday, when we try to talk nicely to Leong family, you know what the wife says?? She really drive me nut with the way she talk and act. I really feel like to slap her and tell her to F*CK off and move to isolated village where she can do whatever she wants.

Dadi: What happen yesterday? Why you all build the wall and make our side here so ugly and dirty?
Stupid woman (in angry tone): If you want to patch and seal your wall nicely….do it yourself and pay yourself lar
Dadi: We really don’t care what you want to do with the wall, but, now, you are cross on our side here and it is a sharing fence, ok? By the way, shouldn’t you notify us earlier too? As we can clear our stuff off, rather than now, you are dirtying our place.
Stupid woman: Why should I inform you of whatever renovation I did? Who are you? Why should I tell you?
Dadi: As a neighbour, we have the right that you inform us about sealing the wall and get our approval first before you start all these mess. As you are sealing the ‘sharing’ fence, and, also since your brick is crossing over our line, don’t we as the owner demand an explanation and a solution from you? By legal right, as long as you cross over people property, you should consult and talk and propose to us first if you want to seal the wall up. And, if we agree, we can share paying the cost. And, you shouldn’t do all these nonsense without consult us at all! By the way, your hubby did apologies before and says in future, anything, he will talk nicely to us first in his email.
Stupid woman: What email? What talk? I don’t even know anything about it at all!!

Their guava tree purposely plant exactly at the border line and the branches or leaf keep falling

Imagine this kind of neighbour. You tell me, whether I should piss off with them or not? Since they move into this neighbourhood, our family really has no peace of mind at all. Every tiny miny day, they would go and did some irritating action that really tests my patience.

Their own unused roof tiles, they put at my backdoor neigbour area and not on their own side

And, during their show off renovation, they even build their extension roof till my side here. Now, I’m just wondering, should I take any legal action on them? I try to talk to them, husband and wife about this issue, but, they always brush me off angrily. I really want to teach them some good manner lesson which I think their families never teach them before. When you are cross over people property, to prevent people from suing you, by right, they should be nice to me. And, not acting like this. What do you think?

Over my property!!!

My colleague told me, that I can go file complain at Majlis Perbandaran, and their officer will come and check and issue reminder to this neighbour and give them certain period of time to remove it……Is it a good lesson to this kind of neighbour?

Good new or Bad new??

Today, my sis called me, and inform me that she really has decided to quit and become 100% SAHM. She seem to be serious about it this time but also can feel of her insecurity in saying it. Anyway, she has been thinking of quiting her job since few years back and now, if she really does type her resignation letter and submit it, I will say that she finally manage to let go of her working world (I know it never been easy to make such decision esp with current economic slowdown but, I guess due to her unconditional LOVE for her kids, she has to sacrifice)!!

To those who hear it, might think it is a waste since she hold a degree and held a good position in her current company and her job is really what everyone want - 'iron bowl'. But, to me, I really do envy that she able to become SAHM and further get fully support from her hubby to go ahead of becoming SAHM. And, I think it is a good new for my nephew & niece, of getting the best attention from their mommy. Honestly, I think it is really not easy to become SAHM and it is even more challenging than working in office, ha,ha.....I can't truly certified it as yet since I'm still full time WM, but, it is really tiring managing 2 'offices' ~ home and work. AAArrrghhhhh...

I'm wondering when will be my turn to fullfill my dream of becoming SAHM?? I dare not say I will be good housekeeper when I become SAHM but, at least, I can guarantee I will look after my princes nicely and make sure they grow up to be successful man, don't that is what every parent wish??

To my dearie sis(Aunty Flora), wish you all the best and Don't ever look back once you decide to go ahead of it :P

New Year, New Year....

Today is last day of 2008, and 2009 is another 14 hours away.....Many things have happened throughout 2008 ~ of course, there are happy and sad events, depending on how I interpreted it, I guess.

All my colleagues started ask me again, "So, 2009, what is your new year resolution?"......Mmmm to be frank, even last year resolution ~ of doing sit up to reduce my tummy flap is not happening at all (didn't even bother to do it after 3 days, so, how to reduce the flap, ha,ha..), I really dare not to even think of 2009 resolution. Anyhow, due to 365 days stress and pressure, I lost weight. Everyone comment on it, when they see me, which is good since I want to lose weight anyway.

For this year, I don't want to set myself any resolution anymore. As long as I'm happy, cheerful and the most, to spend times with my kids & Dadi, it is already a long list for me to fullfill!!! Like this message "Don't read it. LIVE it!!"

p/s: I just love the message that Dadi sent to me on my recent birthday cake ~ Forever Young......Wow, what a meaningful word instead of 'Happy Birthday'. Thank you, darling!!

Medication all around....

These past few weeks, it has been a hectic week for me. My whole family has been sick. It all started with Jona having red eyes -> flu -> cough. Then, after taking medicine, he finally recovered, but, of course, not before he passed the bacterial/virus to my mom and then, me and Dadi and Iz(poor lil boy boy - really become a skinny boy like Dadi liao).

I have been sick since last Monday, but, due to work commitment, meeting, etc, I force myself to work till Tues, which I can't take it anymore and go see my Dr.

"Huh?! Now, only you come and see me after sick for 1 week. What, you thought your body immune system is so strong that it can fight the virus for you huh?" After checking my throat, lung and blood pressure, she prescribe me with strong antibiotic, and other 6 medicines!! "YOU got serious inflammed throat!!" And, you need a good rest, and ask me to take 2 days MC...

Wow, 2 days MC ler...initially, I thought of off for 1 day, then, come to think of it, 2 days ler....I can have a good rest for my body and at the same times, enjoy 'ME' time which I have been ignore for so long.

And, the outcome: Fantastic!! I really fully enjoy the 2 days MC, with good sleep, watch drama series for whole day and do some cross stitch.....

Sometimes, it is really good to have MC once in a blue moon, ha,ha..of course, not serious illness lar.

BaBy, BaBy, BaBy

My biological clock is ticking very fast now, and I know that I'm not that young anymore which I can think of when to have baby.......

Actually, middle of last year, everyone esp from my family - mom, bro, and sis, has been keep asking me to consider when I plan to have a BaBy GIRL....yes, a baby girl. Reason: because I still don't have baby girl yet, and they all think that I should have a baby girl cause girl more filial, etc....which I know it is true (in reality).

And, Iz nanny too. Keep telling me that I need to have a baby girl, cause Iz is so cute and good boy, so, she said it is a pity if I don't have to have another one when I told her, I'm not planning to have baby anymore. She even want to book me for my next baby, and give me assurance that she will babysit my baby.....ha,ha..so nice of her.

Anyone ask me to have one, I won't so bother about it. I will just inform them nicely saying "I think I'm happy with 2 lovely princes and not to plan to have anymore".....Till early of this year, one night, suddenly hubby ask me

Hubby: "Are you sure you don't want to have anymore baby"?

Me: "Sure, no more. Scare lar" Why?

Hubby: You sure?! Cause you always want to have baby girl ler.....no regret?

Me: Ha,ha....no regret, even tho I really want to have baby girl, but, how sure you, that I will pregnant with baby girl. If boy come out, how?

Hubby: yalor hor....

Me: Taking care of 2 boys is not easy ler....blah,blah..blah...

And, he just keep quiet liao.....and he keep 'asking' me for several night, and some more, try to influence or hint me to have another baby.

I just feel miserable......should I go for another baby or just firm on my decision of stopping at 2? Actually, my wish is to have 3 kids - 2 boys and 1 girl, and it seem so coincident, at the moment, I already have 2 boys with GOD blessing.

While I keep thinking about it, my biological clock keep ticking away. It is easy to plan for baby, but, raising a kid is really a demanding job which at the moment, I don't think I'm a good mommy and capable of raising 3 kids....he,he...

How influencing.......

I just wonder how influencing your mom on you when you need to make decision on which brand to choose...For me, my mom play an important role in influencing me (indirectly).

When I was young, I saw my mom save some money just purely want to buy some nice quality container - Tupperware. At that moment, I just think it is nothing special about this brand, etc....but, over the years, my sis also buy Tupperware for daily use. And, even now, my house also got some Tupperware container from my mom.......Initally I just not willing to spend extra money on Tupperware brand, till recently, I have the urge to buy it, and within a day, I spend around RM 500+ on it.......exclude RM 200+ earlier for buying tumbler, etc for my kids. Now, only I appreciate Tupperware brand, if compare to normal container, etc....there is a different. Since my mom is not around, I will be the one who manage my household, so, only now, start to invest like my mom used too before......I only really realise it when I start to manage my household..........

Hubby comment: "This kind of thing can only 'cheated' siew lai lai to buy"

Another brand, that I plan to invest without doubt is wok and pan - for cooking. Have you heard of AMC brand? It is very expensive wor, but, funny, my mom got whole set of it at home. And, trust me, it is really so easy to use and it won't stick on the pan, etc.....with the 'metering' guide you. At the moment, I manage to 'steal' a saucepan and small pot from my mom.....Since I'm not ready or plan to cook yet( I mean 'invest' myself to learn to cook), so, this project will be delayed at the moment.....maybe, I think I will only plan to have it when I become SAHM.

Travel: Taiwan

Iz: Momi, you come back ok?

Me: Why?

Iz: I so scared. You come back and sleep with me, ok?
Me: You got Dadi and Kor kor wor
Iz: No, I want Momi.....**with tears on his eyes

Yeah, I start travelling again after stop for a month.....Everytimes, I travel, I do miss my boys so much esp Iz, cause he will cry when talking to me and plead me to come back home fast. And, everytimes, I do wish my dream of becoming SAHM will be realise soon, which I doubt about it nowadays.....and it will always be my 'sweet' dream.

This time, I really worries so much about leaving Jona and Iz back home with Dadi. Past few days, suddenly Iz got mouth ulcers and till today, he still complaining mouth pain and can't drink or eat much or even sleep well(keep wake up half way).....And, yesterday, what got me worry sick is Jona. Suddenly, after came back from shopping, Jona got mild fever, and today, the fever still there, and need to take medication on time.

Sometimes, I do envy those kids whose mommy is SAHM. At least, when they need their mommy, she is around there with them. It is the best medicine for the kid to have mommy around. I know my kids most. When they are sick, with proper medication and proper care (like boiling crythaneum for Iz scenario, apply and massage Jona with Vicks whole body and wear sock, both of them will recover fast) and be active and naughty again next day.....

But, rely on hubby or nanny, it just being so hard. Like today, I remind Dadi to ask nanny to boil some herb for Iz, and it is not done and when Iz back home tonite, complaining mouth pain again thru phone to me. This morning, before I off to airport, I even see he asking for milk and finish all in one shot and not complaining of mouth pain.......

And, for Dadi, I just wish he could learn how to take care of his kids without me being around 24 hours (I mean on my internet connection, keep MSN or SMS me)....Everytimes, he seem too use to it. Before I left, he always ask me to write down, hour by hour, day by day, what need to be done on his kids, like bath/feeding schedule - when to drink water/milk, etc. Conclude, he just need me to teach him every second what to do.....I'm thinking, if I can be a super woman, how come he can't act as a capable daddy just for a day??

It just make me feel useless at all even though I know business trip meaning some ME time, but, if given me a choice, I would rather be at home act as 'maid' to my sons rather than being keep update about my sons situation and being helpless. It is really a 'torturing' moment for me. All I could said "That's life".

Bug, Bug go away......

Till today, I still feel so tired and exhausted. Yeah, not because of CNY preparation or go to visit my hubby relatives or friends or go to any places as what we had planned (Taiping Zoo or Hot Spring). This year, we just didn't went anywhere, except 'lock' ourselves at my FIL house in Ipoh.

Why? Both my princes has fall sick even before CNY....it started with Jona having a sudden cough, follow by flu and high fever one week before CNY. When Jona not feeling well, he totally just no mood to play or eat. Whole day, he will just laid on sofa, cough and had high fever.

While Iz 'took' advantage of this situation, and became 'KING' of the house. He can play whatever toys he want without anyone disturb or bully him.....he,he...and momi so busy handling kor kor, till didn't realise that Iz diaper has turn into 'buggy' bag........and see the cute 'apple' shape(buttock). He just being so happy playing alone all by himself. Of course, he will be disturbing me or Kor kor to play with him.

After Jona sick for a day, and taking medicine for fever as well as puff for cough, PLUS Momi boiled crysathemun tea for him, immediately he get better the next day. And, I tho I could do a last minute shopping before back to Ipoh. Who know, it is Iz turn!!

So, Iz also had same symptoms like Jona - high fever, flu and serious cough. So, when Iz not feeling well, Jona being so playful again. Just like 'playing' with me to see how strong am I.

And, after one day, Iz show signal of going to be recover soon, and who know, Jona condition started to become bad when he attend school on Monday. The following day, he get MC, and situation became worst as his paed predicted. And, both need to be on antibiotic, which paed give to Iz as well as precautious in case, he might need it.

This 'BACTERIA' just infected both of them non stop. One day is Jona, the another day will be Iz. This 'drama' continue till second day of CNY.......

Just imagine, how tired am I, being sleepless for some many nights. And, frankly speaking, this is the 1st CNY that I didn't celebrate it as usual instead of taking care of my boys (100%) at home!!.....But, thanks GOD, on the day when we plan to come back to KL, both recovered and now, back to normal life like 'leaving' the bug at Ipoh home.......what a nice start for 'RAT' year, I tho. And, I do wish this RAT year, it will bring more good health to my boys rather than MC........

"Good Husband"

I just remember that Tot's mom did write about this topic few days back in her blog....

Why I use this title as well is because it caught my attention when my ex-colleague send me an email.

I know Ellen when I join this company back in 2001, when I went to my HQ in Europe for a training. From there, we start develop into friendship beside being a colleague, and she indeed help me out a lot at initial stage.

And, after 2 years, she came to M'sia together with her husband, which so coincidence become my boss(now ex-boss). And, our relationship grow even deeper, where when both husband and wife on business trip, I will take care of their kids, etc....till they have hired a Filipino maid to assist them. And, they just went back to their country 1 year ago.

Recently, I received a shock email from Ellen. She told me that she got breast cancer on her right breast. And, today, she will undergo a surgery to remove the tumor, and not whole breast, which is a relieve to her. After the surgery, she will undergo few session of chemotherapy, etc...and she will be on long medical leave before she officially went back to work again.

It is really a heartache for me to know about it. I really feel so sad and down, cause all I could do is pray for her wellness and couldn't be by her side.....but, luckily, for her, she has full support from her husband. He cancel all his business trip just to be with his wife (well, I really salute him).

Even though she has to accept the fact, but, she still can make joke out of it. I asked her, how she manage to detect that she has a breast cancer....Here is her answer: "Not me who detect it. It is my husband. He found it out and then, we undergo biospy to confirm it. YOU need to have a GOOD HUSBAND!!"

Anyway, I really do wish she will recover fast and back to normal life again.....And, I guess life is so unpredictable. What I will do from now is try to eat balance meal and have healthy lifestyle...It is really easy to say but, hard to implement unless I have the determination to do it.