Feeling Guilty

For the past 2 weeks, I have been 'addicted' to this drama series -" Women of Times". If you do subscribe Astro at your home, you should know. It is aired at 7pm, AEC channel from Mon-Fri.

Actually, I do have this bad habit of addicted to drama series, previously when I'm still single, my hubby(boyfriend at that time) always rent whole set of videos and let me keep watching it straight after back from work till early morning....Maybe, Jona LOVE to watch tv, partly because of me too....while I heavily pregnant Jona, I got small tv in my bedroom, so, hubby pity that I'm so immobile, purchase lots of DVD/VCD and let me watch every night before doze off....

Once Jona born, I automatic 'stop' this habit liao, maybe due to motherhood gua....and, when I moved to new house, I informed firmly to Dadi that no tv in my bedroom, so, when I preggie Isaac Noel, less watching tv, end up...Isaac Noel till now, just dislike watch tv rather he prefer outdoor activities (believe or not: Jona can watch tv inside the house, while Isaac just so happily playing outside in my car porch??)

Back to my guilt: suddenly, yesterday I just realise that I have been 'ignored' my son asking for momi attention once I back from work....the feeling is so bad...these past week, I have been ignored of Jona school progress, homework, request playmate and Isaac request to go playground, etc.....and these past few weeks, I realise Jona & Isaac being so unhappy, either keep crying, fighting, screaming, etc.....

So, yesterday, I told myself: Enough is ENOUGH!! My sons is my priority...I will sacrifice all my interests and time only devoted to my sons to see them grow up happily. And, yesterday evening, it is back to old momi liao - bring them to playground, play as they like, back home, drink water, play toys, eat dinner, sleep.....
(Isaac is the happiest person cause yesterday nite, when I taking my dinner, usually, my mom will bring Isaac out for walk walk. Yesterday, he just don't want, and when force, he just request to be pao pao rather than walk)

I told Dadi about my new schedule: After boy boy sleep, I will tidying the house, etc and wait to watch the drama repeating again at 11.30pm. He so pity me, he said, he will try to see whether he will be able to buy this drama series in VCD/DVD wor...so, I can watch it anytimes I like...he,he..can you believe it? I don't!!